Nov. 2nd, 2010

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Wow. It has been a while, hasn't it?

I just lost my job. Through no fault of my own--I have become steadily more injured with a series of symptoms, the cause of which is presently unknown, but one of the presenting symptoms is tendinitis. It finally got so bad in my elbows that the doctor threw me out of work, and because there had recently been a transition at my place of business and I had officially worked for a different company for about ten days, I was not eligible for short-term disability, FMLA, or pretty much anything else useful.

As scary as this has been . . . I think that it has been a positive thing in my life. It's one thing to know that work is eating your life. It's another thing to really step back and have the objectivity to see, for example, not just how sick it has made me, but the fact that I haven't updated this journal in over a year. And since this journal is for a really core piece of my life, that's got to be considered a bad thing.

At Twilight last year, probably the most important thing that happened is that I talked with my trio of shapeshifters about working less with Coyote and more with Fox. Much to my surprise, Coyote was just fine with this. I have always known that I would have a life transition to Fox at a certain point--probably around the time that I had children. No children yet, but . . . it was time. Maybe it was past time. I swore I was going to stop crippling myself. I think this is a step in the right direction.

Beyond that . . . in the process of losing my job, the question of what I want to be when I grow up has inevitably come up again. I'm still not sure I know, but one of the things I'm looking at is a possibility for when I get well enough is applying to Cherry Hill Seminary to do my Masters in Divinity. What do you do with a Masters in Divinity from a pagan seminary? In my case, nothing that's likely to lead to job opportunities. But it's something I really feel called to do--have for years. So, since I wouldn't be applying for next semester anyway, I'm re-visiting the question of getting involved with the local pagan community. I've always been a little reluctant to do this, not because of the specific community, but because I was very burned by church politics while I was growing up. To me, so many pagan communities are just church politics wearing a funny hat. But I was called to serve when I was twenty-five, and I've been trying to do this on my own, making my solitary connections with other people. I think perhaps it's time to see about broadening my scope.

Nothing else exciting here. Still alive, still kicking, and ready to go on to something new, I think.


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